My god what have I done
I've turned everything into this mess it shouldn't  have played out like this

I should stop reading your stupid song that you probably wrote about someone else

I should stop listening to that dumb playlist that means nothing

I should stop thinking about you constantly over and over I should stop reading that goodbye letter and I should stop writing this

But Jesus Christ I miss you
And Jesus Christ the thought that you hate me or think I'm over dramatic
Is killing me
"So much angst"
SORRY I WAS ON DRUGS
SORRY IM ON DRUGS NOW
SORRY THAT YOU ARE THE NIGHT AND DAY AND YOU MADE ME FORGET THAT EVERYTHING WAS WRONG AND THAT NOTHING HAS PURPOSE
AND SORRY THAT NOW THAT YOURE GONE I FEEL LIKE IM ROTTING AND THAT NOTHING WILL BE RIGHT AGAIN

YOURE RIGHT THERE WAS SO MUCH ANGST IN WHAT I SENT YOU

I LOVED YOU
I LOVE YOU
*******