I believe in promise more than I should Grew up thinking that pinkys bent together were the strongest bond there is I am just now learning how to ease my grip Learning How to break the rope I tie with vow Just before it catches into noose I have been hung from the rafters of my own vulnerability Too many times before And I am learning How to build back strong Learning How to keep my doors locked Trying To stop letting people in Those who lure me with the pledge of future Who tell me their intentions are golden And I, The silver plated woman Have nothing to worry about But I've seen platinum turn to rust right before my eyes And too often does metal twist into deceit I want to believe That everyone who gives me oath Is genuine in their undertaking I want to believe That it is impossible To tell someone you care And then out of nowhere just pack up and leave I never understood How it is anyone is able To wake up one morning And just stop loving How you could swear interest for months And then one day just lose it I am done Holding on to words that never meant anything in the first place How many times do I have to hit hard until I learn To stop jumping in head first I am still believing And forgetting the lie within it Forgetting That pinkys can break too Bone is not shatterproof Yet somehow Still heals much quicker than heart My hopes Are so much brighter than my reality And every time they fail I still find ways to put blame on something else On someone else But never the one who drops me I still remember your promise Still fresh from your tongue I am holding on to it in the palm of my hand Grasping it between fingers Morphing it into skin Trying to convince myself That you're going to come back for it That the leave was only temporary See I am skilled in the art Of never letting go It is a practice I have mastered And I do not intend On stopping Even if you never return Even if I Never come back down to earth I am perfectly content with this delusion Wake me up When there is solace In something other than falsity Wake me up When I finally find someone Willing To come back to me.