All the time people say
being alone and being lonely
are two different things
I used to believe
but not tonight

I'm too scared to try for love
too scared to look
I'm too scared to even give a chance
I can imagine myself happy
But I don't know if it's real

I thought I found it before
But now I know I was just hiding behind
What could never be
I'm terrified that I am too not right
to even find what I'm supposed to be looking for

I'm terrified that I'll never find someone
who will put up with my
back and forth mind