A bridge over blue water.
A woman running, her hair bouncing and flowing.
I grind my teeth and press my tongue against the roof of my mouth.
Last night burnt me.
I sat alone in a dark room.
You didn't know.
Just before you came in.
Just before I was smiling.
Covering my face with a pillow.
I wanted to fall asleep earlier, with your legs on either side of me.
Later, you touched my face; only briefly.
Each moment I get closer & closer.
I can't tell if you're moving away or simply staying the same.
I hope that you are falling slowly.
I'm already there.
I can't speak.
I tried to say the words in that room.
The sound of the shower running.
My lip trembled.
I caressed my own face.
Ran my hands through my hair.
As if you were there.
That's what made me cry.
The things I couldn't say.
I'll see you in a few days.
Maybe then.