Let’s not make this pleasant. I don’t want to sigh or breathe my memories into you; I want to spit them into you. I want to set you on fire with all that I’ve felt, and watch you writhe in the burning pain that is me. I will not put you out until I’ve charred your skin and can peel it from the bone with ease, just as you have done to me.
To be clear, I refuse to be pretty. I want the blood to stay under my fingernails and the bags under my eyes to darken. I am not the daisy-freshness of spring. I am grotesque. I am skin and bone and blood and bile and spit.