tell me how I owe me more black butterflies then the prettiest forests on islands where only vermin creep to low inches lower then the lowest feet grounded by my own productivity
It makes me smile to know that I have shed you that I have left you in those footprints I left on the beach when I went walking by myself a week ago in the black water
the hours merk down like red candle wax unscented in the middle of a wooden cabin somewhere deep in my empty objects emptied out by everyday little tiny life oh life
your reluctant love was like a painting I could never finish, so I abandoned it the grays never mixed right and my arms didnt intertwine with your spine correctly
should I slit the sides of my neck would it have been the end of me I thought departure was more capable of death then open wounds on cold flesh
and in those two minute love meetings where I would inhale every bit of your breath into my chest, I felt it gaping into something deeper than your darkest cave
light light, he said light light ,I said hidden somewhere in between your pupils and utopia half folded lips in my palms greetings sweeter than peaches greetings that lasted too long
I reached for you like a starving child I sought you out like a bird seeking shelter and there I was in the corner paint peeling off the walls into different strands of my hair you sat next to me you kept me company but mentioned leaving
so I accepted your hesitant departure and I demanded you to leave.