I see your face in my mind, it smiles at me much more often there. Your countenance in that moment I long to produce with my efforts to bring you joy everyday.

I dwell on the feeling of your rare touch and the softness of your voice in that moment of tenderness. How I dream of a day when this will be a frequent experience.

I remember the smell your skin from each night that I embrace and caress you from your head to your feet, how sweet your scent is as I lay in the curve of your waist and drag my nails across your thighs.

In my mind you are always in love with me, you never doubt it or deny it, I am never rejected and I am safe. This makes me smile until my cheeks plea for mercy.

I wish for the circumstances of us that I treasure in my mind to be the reality of us. For there is where my greatest love, who abandoned me so long ago, after a brief introduction can be found. I momentarily get to see his smile, feel his loving and tender embrace, hear his sweet voice proclaim his never-ending love for me....and in a moment he is gone and again I must wait what seems an eternity, for his miraculous return. Enduring the punishment until I see you again. I miss you.