My mind and energy flourish between 10 p.m and 6 a.m. Sleep is a concept to my body that sits on the back burner of the disorder overtaking my ****** systems.
At night is the time I feel alive, Alone, Depressed, Exuberant Inspired, Drained, Awake.
The darker the skies the more open my eyes seem to get. I race across the internet in my liveliness learning or observing, And occasionally when I'm on my lows, self-diagnosing.
At night is when my mood shifts from happy to sad and my thoughts range from beautiful words and pictures to hate and self-loathing. At night is when I am capable of understanding the mysteries surrounding the concept of living and at night is when I re-evaluate decisions in my life and change, for better or for worse.
But all this can only be between 10 p.m. and 6 a.m. When the world is dead and I am the only one experiencing it.