Please don't take this the wrong way. I hope you are not my soul mate. I hope your anchor line is not tethered to the ship in my chest. I love you, but in the way that I want take tape and glue and show you how to reconstruct a heart from all the broken bits.I want to kiss your salt stained lips and leach away the pain. I want to wander with you a while in the pouring rain. I adore you, but in the way that I like to watch the light play across your face and imagine what you could be. I like the look in your face when your looks meet with mine. I like the way we can watch the interplay of our minds. But I know you cannot be in love with me and that is okay too, because, at least for now, I don’t want to be in love with you. I just want to wander for a while content in this, in being who we are, which is what the other needs, and enjoying the occasional kiss.

This is all lies. This is all half truths. This is all I swore I wouldn't do. Especially falling in love with you, I am happy but I am lying, it kills me each time to think that with summers ending you go away.   I don't want to be in love with you, because it will hurt, unfortunately I already am.