"i'll always love you"
before you left me in front of my house
you uttered those four words
and my heart skipped about four beats
alone
confused
because, you see
since when does the word always make you feel so
hopeless
always means forever, right?
its supposed to be reassuring
it signifies something limitless, never-ending
but for some reason
when you said
i'd always be the first girl you'd really loved
the word always
hit me like a ten ton truck
leaving a tightness in my chest
that is still there to this day
and the worst part is

i'll always love you, too.