The woman I was supposed to marry moved away long ago And no matter how hard I tried to follow the dust trails I only ever came up short of breath In the end of days where it's always night we spend time in a broken down watering hole on the edge of purgatory and listen to muffled bomb blasts bleeding on through to the other side When she laughs she stares up at the ceiling and I can see traces of repressed horror welling up in her eyes I can tell she's thinking about nitroglycerin sweat and splintered cells and scattered shells before it all goes down In the retro cartoon relapse nightmare I've conjured for us to spend our time The television flickers with the hissing reluctance of reporters telling us to prepare for another invasion She finally speaks. "You know there are no real sides right? You know that back home there's just dodging fire and not necessarily knowing who it's from?" She takes another drink and tells me "You could have come for me, you know? You didn't have to sit stateside with endless excuses while the rest of us had to be there on the blurred front lines. Still...I want to be with you now. Here I am trying to look my best. I like to wear brightly colored ribbons woven into my hair and don't bother to cover all the scars...because that's who I am. they can't take it back and neither can I..." She pauses to brush tears from her face and finishes with "...and I think everyone wants to look nice for the one they love".