Mum
Mummy
Mumma
What would you have called me?

Could I have seen
Your innocent face,
Or felt the warmth
Of your embrace.

Would you have cuddled me
When you cried?
Or smiled and looked at me
With your bright eyes?

Was loosing you
Down to fate?
Down to destiny?

Or was it me?
Did my actions affect you?
Did my emotions
Destroy you?

Did your heart beat?
Even once?
Boom, boom, boom
Or did I **** you before it could?

Am I a murderer
Or a mother?
Will you ever forgive me?

I have wronged you,
I didn't give you a chance
To live the life you wanted,
With me and your dad.

We would love you
And cherish you,
You'd be the apple of our eyes.

But when I knew
You were no more,
A huge part of me died.

I didn't know you existed,
What kind of mother am i?
I should have known from before,
That I'd be blessed with a child.

So tell me
My baby,
What would you call me?
Mum, mummy, mumma.
But you're no longer
There to decide.