I don't know what to think anymore

My brain says one thing and my heart says another

If they only could only join as one, wouldn't that be better?

I want to go but I also want to stay

I want to say no but that wouldn't be OK

I don't want to hurt but I also want to be felt

It feels like I am being pulled by a big tight belt

I think it's my conscience talking or could it only be me?

I don't want to sound selfish but I am very confused

Don't know what to do

My brain all bruised

I can't feel nor can I think

It's like I am on the brink

I hope I don't fall

Because of it all

If I only knew what to do

I wouldn't be here

Thinking and feeling of this dreadful
fear.