i love to think about my future or even so my past although it has been altered with bad things such as drugs and alcohol. i have lost a lot of memories of what used to be and i wish i could take them back. i have a lot of plans for my life, but there's always something in the way of it. i don't exactly know what that something is, but i do know that it is in me. when i say "in me" that can me a lot of different things. i don't know. i'm 16 and i haven't even kissed a boy. i embarrass myself a lot and oh lord this turned sad again.