i used to listen to flatsound's album scotland, i wish you had stayed in the passenger seat, back and forth between home and the place i wanted it to be where i couldn't ignore the winter and the dull pulse of abandoned laughter throughout houses that look like what i feel like on a bad day
and today was a bad day i want to travel backwards to a time i can remember actually trying walking the few streets home from school anticipating telling you how my day went so you could call me and say, "i'm happy for you, princess"
i don't try anymore and it's been a long time since you have been happy about anything except ******* me
the title is the last song on the album, i wrote this while it was playing.