I never knew how stupid I was
Until I was lying in bed
   for hours on end
Trying to cry myself to sleep for the hundredth time
Praying for sleep to come
   And to not wake up
Knowing **** well neither are gonna come true
So I'll just lie here
   letting my mind torture itself
      through the best of memories
         and the worst of truths
Until finally it gives out
   and silent tranquility takes hold