you don't have to explain.

i know you spend 2ams thinking about someone who hasn't thought of you in the past few months.

i know you spend 3ams staring at the kitchen wall wondering why you didn't buy more coffee.

i know you spend 4ams sitting with your back against the mirror for fear of your reflection mocking you.

i know you spend 5ams curled up under blankets wanting to fall asleep but too afraid to wake up.

i know you spend sunrise with the window open and your eyes closed as you pretend that the day will be all right, that you'll be all right.

you don't have to explain, i know that your smile is the remnant of summer as the days grow colder, until it parallels the subzero continent that is the hollow in your chest.