DEAR ******* GOD I GIVE EVERY CELL IN MY BODY INTO RECOVERY AND IT ******* ***** WHEN AS SOON AS I ******* LEARN TO BREATHE AND BE OKAY AGAIN ONE SOUL CAN CRUSH EVERY BEING AND OUNCE OF MOTIVATION I HAVE AND  I CANT SEE THROUGH THESE CLOUDY EYES AND I CAN BARLEY BREATHE ANYMORE AND WHEN THE SCARS ON YOUR BODY SCREAM YOUR NAME AT NIGHT IT GETS HARD TO HEAR THE WORLD AROUND YOU, MAYBE I’M THIS WAY BECAUSE I CAN’T SEEM TO SHAKE OFF THE FEELING THAT I AM SO ******* ALONE AND OH GOD SOMETIMES THAT FEELING COMES BACK THAT I FELT THAT FIRST NIGHT AND I’M TERRIFIED BECAUSE WHAT IF IT GETS BAD AGAIN AND WHAT IF ONE NIGHT I CAN’T CONTROL WHOEVER THE **** TOOK OVER MY HOLLOW CORPSE AND WHAT IF THEY HURT ME AGAIN; PLEASE COME HOME AND TELL ME I’M NOT AS CRAZY AS THESE SCREAMING ECHOS IN MY HEAD CONVINCE ME TO BE.