left to my own devices
taking not a **** word
of any good advice
my mind can get absurd

I think you scare me so intensely
because you flow so smooth
I can't think of you lightly
because you are all I have to lose

surprising me like no other can
the way I feel I just can't get a grasp
but I wish you would take a stand
for my patience never lasts

cautious to lay bare my thoughts
encumbered in my awkwardness
like molasses,* you thicken the plot
simply making this version of me the best.