For some strange reason
I feel that I must write this
I am not sure what to say
I guess I'll just start anyway
I'm not sure how I feel now
I'm having ups and downs
Not liking who I've become
I wish this was all finally done
I put myself in pain everyday
I never try resisting any hate
I use this hate and fear to rise
Rise above all as a surprise
I miss the person I used to be
Happy and loving of the world
Now I wish to just leave it all
Letting myself continue to fall
Unsure where to go with my life
Going with where the flow goes
I'm not sure where to even start
I could just follow my dark heart
But that's been wrong all along
It pointed me to failure in my life
I thought it could help me through
But it just led me straight to you
I thought you were the only one
The only woman important to me
I know now that I was just wrong
I know it was never you all along
You just destroyed what remained
I now have nothing in my heart
I can't blame everything on you
It was my fault, I hope you knew
I was the reason it all went to hell
It was and is my fault it all fell apart
I am the reason I'm who I am today
It was my fault with this price to pay