i am a china doll waiting to be dropped. i am thin-legged spiders starving on the ceiling. i am easy prey. i am an accident waiting to happen. i am storm clouds closing in. i am a hummingbird’s last breath. i am a riverbed gone dry. i am a shot of whiskey with twice the aftertaste. i was nothing but a wasteland. i have a history of disaster. i have left bloodstains on everything i’ve ever touched. i do not know how to feel real anymore. i am lying when i pretend i’m not shatter-proof fragile. i am saying my goodbyes before hellos. i love with the whole of my heart. i am waiting to be told i’m worth keeping. i am sleepy eyelids. i am the waning moon. i am terrified. i am euphoria. i will not apologize for my sadness any longer. i am not defined by the rainstorm in my brain. i am my own one. i am human and i need your love. i belong to everyone. i belong to the fireflies making love against the night sky. i am something else. i am beautiful because i am. i am alive, if barely.