i just need you to be here so i can collapse on your bed with you and you can make me talk about whats happening in my head even though i don't want to, even though i don't have the words to make it all make sense
you just trick me into figuring it out with your eyes and your questions and your frustrations with me,
and i need that bed with us curled together with all of our anger and jealousy and laughter and love smashing into each other falling in love with our hatred and sweetness and ***
i just need your arms and that bed and the stillness you bring me, the smile you coax from my devastating destruction, i need your blistering beauty to warm my cold aching soul