i lay here in my bed,
questioning life and exploring the thoughts in my head.
i stare at the wall while thinking of you,
i have never felt so frustrated and blue.
youre miles away from me,
youre the person i so desperately seek.
do you think about me?
do you wish for me?
i question it all with confusion in my heart,
feeling it get shattered in several shards.
is there something wrong with me?
am i too needy, too angry, too ugly?
you pop up in my mind and its the same,
my thoughts cause even more pain.
was i too pushy, too boring, too demanding?
is there something wrong with my being?
flashbacks haunt me and show me better times,
the answer i seek is something i cannot find.
why do you distance yourself?
why does it feel like im by myself?
we used to be free and outgoing,
we didnt care about nothing.
what happened to us?
how did we dig ourselves into this rut?
more questions, more mysterious answers,
but unfortunately they never get answered.