So many secrets
too many to hide

one day they'll consume me
one day they'll pour out
one day ill be free to live the truth
one day ill be happy with no more lies
ive hurt so many people
too many to count
but only so many have knowledge
of the destruction I've caused
So few know of torture and games
ive inflicted on them

So many secrets
too many to hide

Some day ill crack and the truth will leak
some day ill be honest and good and selfless
some day I will have nothing left to hide
some day ill live without fear of exposure
How do I get there?
I want that right now
someone show me the way
so I can stop all this pain
its raging inside me
the damage ive done
and theres no way I can fix it only correct it
correct the errors in my ways
to prevent it in the future

So many secrets
too many to hide
take them away
im bursting on the inside
send me to sleep
for I am a reckless abuser
and when trying to avoid the temptation
I am always the loser