I'm sorry,
if this breaks your heart,
although I hope it doesn't.
But I have to be honest.
When we kissed,
I didn't feel anything,
except guilt.
But in a way,
I'm glad it happened.
I think I can stop
wondering what could
have been.
We both have too much
to lose.
I felt bad that I
couldn't tell my boyfriend
that I saw you that night,
because I knew it
could ruin this great
thing I have going.
We are both better
people than that.
And I hate lying.
After I left,
I realized I really
am in love,

but it was him

that I was so afraid

of losing.