I wish to flay myself to strip away your stain
You that I near-loved
and You that caused my fall from grace

One who healed and saved
and another who unknowingly shunted
my chance of continuance

Counter balanced and marked
by my vulnerability and inner injury
The only similarities
between my sweet and my pain

I feel both of You on me
Haunting and afflicting

I won't heal from this
insult to injury
(and oh the guilt!)
'til I'm apt and equipt

God have mercy on me
and guide my way
I can't do this alone...