you weren't the way i imagined you to be

you were *****
and rugged
and raw

with freckles on your cheekbones
and scars on your heart
fingers that moved
and eyes that knew pain

you had words that ached

words with no appeal
but that were filled with allure
captivating and charming and graceful
if only to me

words that made people feel
words that made people
look away
try to forget
that made them sweat
and scream at night when they were supposed to be
all cozy and warm tucked into their beds

words that made people know
that inside, they were alone
in their perfectly put together minds
always dismissing and letting go
anything that didn't matter
or that they didn't accept

your words
they told people of the darkness
how even though the light could overcome
there would always be too much to conquer
too much to get rid of
because time was moving rapidly and light
would never be able to contend

how one day there would be









so









much









space









between the stars
the speed of light wouldn't even be enough
the fastest speed would be deemed
unfit to travel
(imagine that)
one star wouldn't be able to observe another
let alone fathom one's existence

and how it was a travesty but, then again, it was all we were given
all we would ever know
here in universe X

that time is just
a blink of an eye
an exhale
a crashing wave
the end of the story

because once time begins
it is destined to end
and we exist in time's trajectory.

in The Void
time is but a faint paradox
a word
used to mask a concept
we only begin to understand
when it's too late

when the shops are being boarded up
and the hurricane's about to come ashore
-you've got fifteen minutes
but is that enough time?
to hammer the nails and
cross your t's
dot your i's
get home to your family
make sure they're
safe
and
all warm and cozy, tucked into their beds
before the rain starts to fall
and the wind starts to blow
harder than you've ever known
intense and without remorse
without feeling but with force-

you told them
you told them but they didn't listen
they didn't understand
they were too worried about
closing early
leaving late
making it home on time

too worried about getting it right and not enough about
living
the only task they were given
and they couldn't even
figure it out

but now this is me talking and no one was asking you to figure it out
they were just asking you to be
to just
be

to feel the sun
to feel the pain
to guess, to smell
to feel the change
to feel the rain
dance on your skin
to laugh
to breathe
to dream
to sin
to see the sunrise now and then

to stretch
to make
to break
to cry
to watch the clouds
go floating by

to give your heart
never refuse
to wonder
yell
and look
and lose
and if you're lucky, get to choose

you can hate and love and be in awe
paint and write and even draw
(but that's not all that you can do)
it doesn't matter, here's a clue
now is your time for passing through
it's all been done in this Royal Blue
the only difference: your point of view
so cheers 'cause now you're coming to
and with that, i bid adieu
~
your words
they moved mountains
the mountains in me
they were all you had
and they were everything


you were ***** and rugged and raw
but you
you were real
and that was more than enough for me

together, we were chaos
harmony was never our concern