I hope you still care
with your big caring eyes
I hope you still fall in love with fictional characters
and you haven't given up on fairytales

I hope you still read
all these books we shared
Maybe you still wish to have lockers in  school
so a secret admirer could fill them with notes.

I remember you laughing really hard
at jokes we could only understand
How your smile disappears when you are sad,
how the world shatters when you are mad.

I hope your eyes still shine
whenever you get amazed
'cause I haven't seen them for a while.
I know you might have found eternal love,
do you remember about asking if we've ever been kissed?

I remember your heys and the world sparkled
intervals when we looked for each other,
a single thought was enough to share.

Those notes in our books still matter more
than thousands words of my other friends
I know they say nothing but they are still you
untouchable by time, for me to return there.

You wrote that I would never be alone,
how you knew I was surrounded by loneliness?
And now I become one with it,
embracing the cries of the night...

Missing you and hating myself when you act like I never existed...

You said "Should you forget about your past, you are nothing", You said....