With You, Caesar

My words I say, “I love you!”
You smile to what I say…
You,… reach out
I reach for you
Than,…
You turn and start to walk away.

“There is nothing going on here…
Not by the light of the day.
Only when there is no one looking”
These words are what you say…

“You are only here for now
That is,
If it’s,…
What you want?”
My heart’s exposed
If I want?
You,
you know my heart…
Now,
Now,… is where I stay.

You say to me,
“ I want you.”
You hold me
I feel… these words are true.
But,… before too long
Your embrace grows strong
Then,…
“What?…
What is it… did I do ?”
Abandon!?
Abandon,…
Abandon is where I be…

You wait,
till I’m up and walking…
You look at me …In your way.
You know my heart
It's torn apart…
I see you.
What…?
What is it… can I do?
Now,…
Now,
Is where I’ll stay.

You hold me tight…
I feel safe
As long as… I’m in your arms.
Still, its only in the shadows
How can this bring me harm.
So tender are our moments
Til dawns new dew light ….
Then… you go

You hold me tight
My love,…
You rule my night
And You,… you leave me
To rule my day.

You say to me,
“I never want to hurt you”
Words…
How can these words be true?
You say these words … as if you mean them
but it’s not by what you do…
You walk right in… girl in arm
And, I hear your whole family say
At least your not with… no one!
Here I stand
Nobody
I am nobody at all, today!?

You tell me,
“ I had to bring her
You heard what the family’s said.
I can’t just be with nobody.”
I only turn my head…

You,…You made me nothing
(Nusquam praeter a meretricis.)
I am Caesar’s ***** …
I'm here crushed and alone
… Before all of Rome
What other feelings
Can there be.

I turn from you
I walk away…
I hear your voice,…
“I love you! “

I cant believe,…
How,… how can these words be true?
What more can you take… from me?
What more is it… will you do?

Abandon me… abandon me…
Is my heart’s cry.
I hear the words
” I love you.”
And ,…I merely wish…
I could die!?
So many times
You’ve turned from me
But now,…
I am turning too.

But…?!
You grab me back into you arms…
You hold me hard
You say,
“ I love you!”

Oh, Great Caesar,
You know my heart…
My heart
Belongs to you
You make me want…
I,…
I belong to you!
My heart says …
‘ Now!’
Oh, what now?
What is it…?
I am suppose to do…

Now, with me
You are gentle
You’re attentive, loving and kind
Still, I am but your shadow
And,… of Rome I am
Nusquam.

I fear… each day…
The days slip away
What more
Of me
Will you take…?

To all,
I am a no one.
Nobody… but to one.

All I have you rule
All but this, Isis' sun.?
Will you now take this too…?
Will you now take
leave me without
A heart.

Rome now takes to rumors
Our secrets… feed their delight.
Now,… is hard
My mind
Grows marred
As my days collide…
With our nights.
You tell me
Not to leave
“ Don’t go in today.”
If only…. I’d pay heed
But,…
I went along on my way.

Great and mighty Caesar
Daggers are now
On their way.

They will take from me
My night
And try
To take my light away

Now,..
Now daggers…drip red
Now, Mighty Caesar
My love,… is dead.

And I,
I exile...  to Egypt.