so much love to give, so many kisses to send..
and at the end of the day all i can do is pretend.
these eyes are tired of crying and this heart is tired of hurting..
this pain is unbearable..it's so disconcerting.
i think of your voice but no sound comes through..i see your lips moving, but the sound is not you.
UPDATE 2012
*The above poem i started to write a long time ago...when my heart was lost and blind. i guess never finished because enough was ENOUGH. Glad my eyes were opened..God had a plan for me..a great one, i just didn't know it yet.
My heart was talking up there..and as i read through it a year and a half later, i realize my heart was crying but God was speaking to me at the same time...he made me strong enough to MOVE on. So glad i did..The good Lord had someone else in store for me...someone who can give me ALL of his love and who could receive ALL of mine. NO excuses, no hesitation.. feels good i must say. My kids see a different mom..a happier one... :)