It's not that I'm too nice to say no To shut you down And walk away
If I wanted to I would I could I've done it before I'm not afraid
No, that's not it
It's that I'm not sure
What I'm really afraid of Is passing up Something good Missing something Right in front of me
I love adventures I love risks I love to be proved wrong And I'm not sure of much But I am sure You deserve a shot I'm curious I'm not ready to say no Not quite yet
Too many times God has surprised me Too many times He has Shaken me Flashed neon signs Flipped tables
Until finally I understand what he wants Until finally I let him guide me 180 degrees In the opposite direction
But sometimes My love of adventures My openness My willingness to try Overshadows His voice Sometimes Too often I push it too far Without even recognizing it
I'm also afraid of that Pushing forward when there is no where else to go Pushing forward when In reality I'm only headed Back
My mind is already open Now if I could just open my ears And listen
But my ears, They seem to be stuffed full With impenetrable cotton ***** The lobes Folded over Glued to the tips Stapled shut For good measure
Everything is Distorted Muffled
All I hear are Whispers Small tendrils of noise Silently slipping by
It's like I'm under water And the words are stuck in the air Jammed in the clouds Floating away from me