your father got drunk at your graduation and i wanted to keep holding your hand. you in your blue robes, a white star in the sea, your heart so palpable like an artist's dreams. your step-father pretended he cared, but muttered under his breath during the procession and i wanted to keep holding your hand. i wished my fingers would grow like vines around your palm so you'd know i'd be there all along. the ground may feel broken and your successes made into background noise, but you're my white owl who carries all that is unseen in your forest-touched eyes and i believe that our hands, as long as they're stuck together, will give you the wings to leave the rubble behind.