i haven't taken time to write this down,
you lived in my head for a while,
i tried all the things i could think of,
a ******* isn't what you are at all
but its what i have become.

on my own i can do the right thing
taking care of the love that raised me
that's where i belong, with father and mother, you'll probably never read this at all.
i have been away from them so long now, i am failing to exist
somehow i've turned inside out,
i am not who you wanted.

i'm a drunk and a liar, i'm afraid of the future,
i am not the man you deserve, this was not meant to be, no fairy tail or Disney, i'm failing to exist.

now its time for starting over, it's just the tip of the iceberg,
i hope you get what you wanted, it just better be what you need
you'll wear a white dress and a smile,
i'll be depressed by the sight, though later i'll smile
i've started to exist!