When I tell someone I am different than most people,
I do not mean I am better. I do not mean I have lived more.
I mean it as a warning.
Take caution before you want to get inside of me.
Because when you do, there is no turning back.
And when you do, you will see the pain that I see.
You will hurt until you cannot hurt anymore,
and eventually this will lead to our demise.
Whoever you may be this time around.

Because when I say I am different,
I am the only one aware of the reality behind it.
The difference in me hides behind the lies.
It scares away with a single threat.
And it destroys every bit of humanity inside of me.

The difference in me is disguised by the outside world,
and deceives the smartest of men.
Because it digs deeper.
So deep that it will never leave.
The pain never departs from my soul.
And soon enough it always shows itself,
only long enough to scare away whoever dare try to fix its need for destruction.

My vengeful heart will never let you stay.