Mother I see the sadness in your eyes The uncertainty The fear of solitude I saw it the first time I told you I was leaving Spat out in awkward silence during one of our quiet dinners I told you that I was leaving Going across the country Moving 5,000 miles away To where the air is always warm And sun is in abundance Leaving To experience real life For the first time Mother You took my haste decision to go As nothing more than a reason for abandoment To leave you Alone And longing Just like my father did But you see Mother I am not leaving to spite you I am not leaving because I no longer need you I am not leaving in attempt to forget every memory built in the drywall of this home Mother I am not leaving To solely leave you I am leaving Because the roots I've planted refuse to grow here I can not bloom into anything more than weeds and grass in an environment like this In constantly cold weather With bitter neighbors In a town surrounded by people whos only intention Seems to see you fail I have failed too many times To want to give up I have lost myself on too many occasions And am just finding out Who I am I know that There is a longing in my heart for ocean And sand between my toes I want nothing more Than to risk everything I have ever known To be able to see through a different lense I would rather lose it all Than condemn myself to a life of unhappiness Of wondering what could have been Mother I have never been one for small towns And I have lived here long enough to know That I don't want to come back Mother I know that You're afraid To be on your own The typical story is usually about letting your little girl go But there is no need to Mother I want you to hold on And one day when you've pinned down the demons you've wrestled with for so long The crippling anxiety that has left you confined to this house The depression that has kept you prisoner to yourself One day mother When you finally overpower fear And befriend adventure You will join me We will replant ourselves Grow all of the petals we never before could And become something beautiful Mother You have made me who I am And regardless of where I go You will always Follow Mother I am leaving So that one day you can Too.