You want to **** yourself, why not?

Because of Mike, he may be an idiot, he may **** you off, but he is your best friend, and you need to always be there for him.

Because of Zoe, you may not see it right now but she is perfect, and beautiful, and amazing, and lights up your life.

Because if you do this, if you **** yourself, it will **** him. Michael is already so angry, at people, at things, at a lot. But do this and Michael will have a reason, he will break. He won't cry, certainly not in public, but if anyone says something that reminds him too much of you, or insults him, or makes fun of you. They will be on the ground, Michael won't stop until he is made to, and he will be in so much trouble. And you won't be there any more to get him out of it, because that has always been your job, but now you are dead, you failed at your job, and he is in trouble.

Because if you do this, if you **** yourself it will **** her. Zoe is already broken, already so fragile, she can't lose you. If she does she will cry, that perfect, beautiful face stained with tears, that girl who you would have traded the world to see smile, well now you are the reason why she is crying. Your perfect little angel, who you used to want to protect from everything, from all the pain, and terrible things in the world. Well you just caused her so much more pain than you can even imagine, and you just showed her, or taught her, or reminded her just how terrible the world really is. That perfect, amazing, beautiful girl you fell in love with, who already had nightmares every night over you, who was already slightly broken, you just broke her more. You even broke your promises, because how can you still love her if you are dead? and you just hurt her so much, when you promised you would never do that again.

So go on, **** yourself, why not Aiden? At least you won't feel like crap any more