If I let down my guard
and I say yes,
will you let me down?

If I open up my heart
and I let you in,
will you break it?

If I allowed it to happen,
you could be the rain
on my face
and the wind
in my hair.
I’d go through a thousand shades of weather
for you

But I’m telling you now,
that if you let me down
and break my heart
I don’t think I can face going back
to the man I once was
and the emotional  carnage
I knew so well.

More steely- eyed than before
my guard will go back up
and my disappointment
will return
to its heart shaped box.

Dark clouds
will swell like a bruise in the sky
and I’ll be left wearing my loneliness
like a familiar sweater.