i cannot remember how many pills i took that night or how many minutes it took for the ambulance to arrive no, i cannot remember the details most of it was a blur rushing faces, bright lights, loud noises
but i remember your voice and i remember it was the first time you told me you loved me do you remember i tried to say it back? or do you remember the details did you memorize the seconds i was dead for? or how long it took to bring me back? darling, there used to be no difference between your fist and your face but that night, i couldn't tell your tears from your mouth