I used to be
all of which you call me by today,
a ****,
a *****,
a ****,
jealous,
unremorseful,
disrespectful,
living a meaningless life,
being delusional,
one who betrays.
But I want you to understand,
so desparately,
that I am no longer that confused, reckless girl.
I know what I deserve now,
and it isn't this.
I'm not who I used to be
I'd scream it at the top of my lungs
for the rest of my life,
if it'd make any difference
(but it wouldn't)