As I step into place Whether surrounded by others Or just one other I’m alone
As the gun shoots I start Like an out of body experience My feet aren’t mine
I’m not even me As I’m floating above this ******* auto pilot And from above all seems clear For one split second
Then I’m back Moving In the direction they tell me to run At the speed they tell me is best
And yet I feel so free And when I want to speed up When I want to sprint ahead Leave all else in the dust
It’s just a question of endurance And honestly I feel like I can endure anything Actually I feel like I have Like I’ve endured everything
I know I haven’t there’s more pain to come Speeding up just wears you out faster But with that ******* my heels I just can’t let her catch up As she gets closer I remember All the things I want to forget All the things I’m running against
And a surge of energy Whips through me Full of emotions And exploding with power
The hatred for the boy with no heart The sorrow for the friend who will never see me run The anxiety I’m not ready for the future The fear I’m not good enough
So as I run far from sight from the girl behind As I pass the finish line And want to fall from exhaustion I feel happy
But what do I do When I can’t keep running? When I’m not fast enough? When the girl catches up?