Sometimes you make me so mad. Because you treat me really bad. I really dont know how to act. If only I could speak with more tact. Thinking, blood pressure rising. I feel like I could explode. My feelings now have over-flowed. I can't keep calm. I want to cry in my palm. It really is not fair. To just act this way and not care. Why are you so narcissitic? You have no reason, no logistic. You do not own me. You made it clear, expect nothing. Why do you act if were apart of something? I have grown numb I feel like I don't know who I am. I have built up an emotional dam. Devoid of love or care. That is not the person I want to be. I want to connect, not feel like I have to flee. So I act like I don't care. Feelings have become none nothing to share. Never in my life have a I felt afraid to feel. Seeing you talking, boring round and round like a wheel. You have no right! No right to make a fight. Your hold me at a double standard! All my feelings completely unanswered. Because I know I can't have none. So your not allowed either! Not a single one!