I'm standing in the queue, swede in hand a trolley filled with representations of the person I hope to become fresh, safe, healthy, organic the sound of fruit and vegetables screaming for my attention drowns out the sound of you wondering out load how it came to this the food on my table became something much bigger than it was ever intended to be there's no such thing as an innocent steak and peas you casually opened my fridge door for a cursory glance an uninvited familiarity my inner private world until now known only to myself and the ******* the checkout at the grocery store when I invited you to dinner you looked at me as if I had asked you to father my children but we had been dancing around in concentric circles of admiration formalities slipping away over drinks for weeks could inviting you to cross my threshold have overstepped yours? I have offered you a seat at my table and a place in my heart not your last supper a sacred feast symbolizing the beginning of something more a time when I know what you like to eat for breakfast and how you have your coffee when you share your pleasure in your meal with me on the same fork across the table when tastes and aromas inhabit our landscape forming our story around the intimacy of food