My heart is beating fast
My chest feels like it's being crushed
The need to do something is overwhelming.

To beat the walls with my fists
Tear things apart with my teeth
Scream until I have no voice.

Crush things beneath my feet
Rip my hair out
Cry until it hurts enough to forget.

Forget the world
All the problems
And the people.

Smash my most prized possessions
Curse in a never ending string
Hate everything and everyone near me.

Run until my legs give out
Beating the ground with my open hands
Laughing at how badly it hurts still.

I can't write, I only rip the pages.
I can't sing, I have no voice.
I can't sleep, I'm to afraid of what I'll see.

I can't tell you,
I don't know how to
Phrase my pain so you will care.

My hands shake
My vision blurs
Losing sight of everything that matters.

I want to let go of it all
Just to fly
Away from this feeling.

But it holds tight to my neck
Assuring me it is here to stay.
Nothing I can do will work.