I wish I could smile and not have to force it upon my face
I wish people could see that behind my odd crooked smile
There is a heart that is breaking inside
Cracking and tearing at the seams
I wish when I laughed it wasn’t so obvious how fake it really is
How loud and crazy and bubbly it is
It isn’t real, its forced at the moments expected
So no one expects the pain I truly hold
Sometimes I wish someone could really see that I am struggling
That sometimes I just want to cry
Just to let it all out
I want to be the real me around people
But I honestly don’t know how anymore
I am so lost in this world