All these years I've been repressed Choked by feelings unexpressed Boiling, bubbling deep inside Buried in my hole, I hide It's a grave I dug myself Because you left me by myself And you hung me out to dry All so you could up and die
I think about you often Petal pink inside your coffin Your memory, relentlessly Lunges up to strangle me Your nails like talons, painted pink So well preserved But you still stink
I wish you could have told me why You never even said goodbye My childhood memories, out of synch As I remember you, in pink So fragile as you decompose And I'm the only one who knows
...and sometimes, I still hear your voice I block it out You made your choice You took responsibility For never coming back to me.
Parents should not use young children as confidants.Β Β The child cannot bear this guilt.