It's funny how years and years go by in a place where pain once burrowed so intently at that time when it had nothing else to do but torture my limbs and make heavy my knees i remember hating my feet for weeks I didn't speak defeat that swelled my eyes I was a baby and you were mine and I chased you like a dog I was always a dog I followed you to the end of your smile and kissed it so many times more than I'd ever kissed anyone still to this day I praise you much differently than then of course we are both women now we still share the same friends but you're never around when I'm with them I get this, it's different and I don't even mean to think about it I just remember growing and you were always around and I always chased you I think I still chase you and I know i'm still growing I've just always needed to say thank you for that