an airy happiness
that shocks at first.
but to puzzle over it would be
to wipe it away,
to burn it away like
an early morning fog.

i bask in it
worries hanging around
chiming in every now and again
but for the first time
in a long time
i can wave them away
the buzzing flies they are
they will be back
but not right now.

i dance and sway
in the
clear and sunny day
no trace of the grey clouds
that hid the stars last night.

for some reason
everything just fits into place.
i am happy
in this
same old house
with the same dogs
chewing the same couch
or even the same rats chewing
on the same walls
while i chew the same toast
and drink the same bitter coffee
cause i'm out of sugar
again.

everything fits
and even though you've
been gone days
weeks now...
i am happy.
my mind wants to stray
but i wont let it.
i hold on tight
and imagine i am sitting
on a high cliff
feet dangling
sea busting below
air threatening to whip me away.
i jump and
fall into the couch.
i can't help but
smile.