The streetlight is shaped like a lantern And its golden light spills out in a clear, spoked pattern of darkness and illumination Its shadows stretch long And reach their fingers into your empty windows. If I stand at its base, I stand at the center of a great perfect wheel of light that sprays in all directions. I speak to you Because you speak to me. I wonder If you recognize the surgical mask swinging from my arm Soft and white. They tell me your walls breathe poison They tell me That I shouldn't. I stand and whisper to you Who I am Who I have been. Perhaps the shade of a girl like me Peers out your yawning windows Through the spaces where the glass has been punched out Past the ragged, yellowed curtains that sag limply from above Out From between the leafless ivy that twists its gnarled strands up your crumbling skin and digs into all your weaknesses. Perhaps if I had shown myself a bit earlier If my life had begun before it did Perhaps we would have met in a different way. It makes me sad that I fear you. Your stone steps, carpeted with dead leaves, black metal railings leaning drunkenly to either side. Your unnatural stillness. But I do not fear to walk your halls Not like the others. No, I do not fear you I fear to become you. That still And that lifeless Like a tree which has long since died and the core rotted But the husk remains standing As if it contains something alive. Are you lonely? Are you still afraid? What does it feel like every night When this streetlight above me blinks on And peeks inside your high windows? Do you rush to shut the drapes Soggy and transparent as they are Try to pull some tattered protection over the garish Harsh emptiness you hold? I stand here And I feel you looking back at me And I am sorry that nothing lives in you And I am afraid that nothing lives In me. And if I were to go upstairs and peer out your top windows I am afraid I would become see through Like a strip of film Illuminated. I fear that I would be a projection on a solid world And I fear That somebody Would turn out The light.