Where do I go when I'm done I can't go home it's not an option

where do I go when I have completed my goals if I make and am successful where do I go?!?

What do I do i have only planned so far and the rest terrifies me

The emptiness and what if I don't succed

what if I fail how to show my face to my family

expecations so high of me because I'm the only one left not married or pregnant

what do I do where do I go

how will I live with the stress and pressure there already cracks in my walls

The doubt and guilt the horror if I do not succed

And what will happen if I do?

Who can I trust in my confusing family

If i succeed I will be disliked because I did

I went further then they did

Succeded where they failed and

and if I don't the joy that I failed that I am not better than them

The pity that I did not make it

What do I do?!

Where will I go