I am strength and I am suffering.
I wonder who I will become.
I hear screams from my throat, though I fear only I can hear it.
I see tears of desperation running down my cheeks.
I want the pain to leave my body.
I am strength and I am suffering.

I pretend to live in a hate free world.
I feel pain but only a smile shows.
I touch my skin and it feels ice cold.
I worry what the truth holds.
I cry when no one is around.
I am strength and I am suffering.

I understand that life is only as hard as you make it.
I say that I’ll be fine, but sometimes I wonder.
I dream of love and constant happiness.
I try to move on.
I hope I can survive it.
I am strength and I am suffering.